Returning Home: Sockeye Salmon Fight Their Way Upstream

By Deanna Kawatski
Published on August 1, 1995
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PHOTO: MOTHER EARTH NEWS STAFF
The fabled struggle upstream to their spawning grounds is both the end and the beginning of the sockeye salmon life cycle.

Throughout my wandering years Shuswap Lake was the
geographical center around which my life orbited. With
stunning regularity I heard it call and with a deep
yearning I returned to touch down in the place where I
had been born. I returned home.

In 1974, dressed in a massive muskrat coat, high red
boots, and a brimmed hat pinned up at the front with a
serpent brooch, I flew home from Paris. I was 22 years old.
I came home with the smell of roasted chestnuts and Vincent
Van Gogh’s self-portrait still lingering in my mind. I came
home with a treasure chest of stories and an empty purse. I
intended to refill it once I got a job planting trees.

Seeking solitude, I retreated to the beach where I
breathed in deeply the rich and healing air. Sitting on a
rock, I nestled up to the waves and let the swirl of
water wash my mind and restore my peace. This was the
same shore where as a toddler I had tripped, tasted
rocks, and experienced the ecstasy of the blue and green
embrace of the natural world.

Sitting still, I listened to the snow melt. Yet how well
I knew the perils of lingering too long. If spring began
to sway forth, as hypnotic as the flute to a cobra, I
knew that I would get stuck at Shuswap Lake. I wouldn’t
be able to move again. But I was still infatuated with
the faraway and possessed by a restlessness that, if
harnessed, could have moved mountains. But once I set
foot on the shore of Shuswap Lake, I felt myself melt
into the land. I had been deprived of this place for much
of my childhood. After my father died, my mother had
found work in a nearby city and we moved. My sister and
brother had also suffered a lifelong denial of their
birthright-to live and grow beneath the Shuswap sun and
moon. We could only experience it in brief and dazzling
summer displays.

Neither brother nor sister fought the urge to settle
here. They each took a token trip abroad, then promptly
returned and began to build homes and raise families.

The Sockeye Salmon Return Home

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