Did you ever read a novel or history book about the frontier days and
mentally make note that it was odd that the women made friends so very
quickly? You know what I mean: a woman and her family are traveling
along, and they meet this other woman along the way, and this new
acquaintance moves into their household and crosses the rest of the
country with them, delivers all the other woman’s babies, and lives with
that I could never understand or reconcile in my mind. Part of the
confusion for me was that I was a shy child. Not just a little shy, but
painfully shy, and painfully shy people don’t make friends easily. So
these stories of instant and deep friendship just weren’t logical to me.
And then we moved to what I call the wilderness. Granted, it’s not
technically the wilderness. We are within one hour of a large city. It
may be twenty-five minutes to the grocery store, but at least it’s ONLY
twenty-five minutes to the grocery store. We are within an hours’
drive to a major airport: and we do have neighbors on our country road.
But even though it doesn’t sound so very remote, the fact is that
when you are here, day after day, it feels like you might as well be a
hundred miles from everyone. It’s very quiet out here. There isn’t a
whole lot of road noise. Once in a while you hear an airplane
overhead. You hear the horses and a donkey from down the road. You
hear the roosters that a neighbor a couple of farms down the road
raises. You hear the dogs across the road barking. You hear the
mailman going by, and because we are so far out, you know it’s the
mailman because any time you hear a car coming down the road, you stop
what you are doing to see who is driving down the road, and it is
usually the mailman.
One of my neighbors said it correctly: “We live on the back side of
nothing. If someone is driving down here, there are only three reasons.
They are either lost, here for no good, or you know them.”
My husband and I used to enjoy driving through the countryside
outside of Washington, D.C. on the weekends. And when we drove through
those itty-bitty towns or even just past a farmhouse out in the country,
I always wondered why everyone seemed to have known that we were coming
because they were standing still, wherever they were, staring at the
road. Most waved, though some did not. All watched us pass, silently.
Now I know why they did that. They could hear us coming in that
country silence. They knew we were coming because they could hear us a
long way off. And they stopped and looked because they were curious to
know if it was someone that they knew or could talk to. And now I have
become one of those human statues, standing and staring. I want to know
who is coming down our road, why, and I wonder if it’s someone to talk
to or just someone blasting by.
Having no one to talk to out here in the country takes getting used
to. Yes, I know, I have my husband with me, but between the tractors
running, the mowers mowing, and the other equipment needing an operator,
talking to him means that first I have to get his attention, then
interest him in the conversation, and try to keep him involved in it,
all the while putting my life in jeopardy. Mostly it follows this
routine:
“Honey,” I yell to be heard over the roar of an engine.
“Honey!” I yell louder, waving.
“Honey!!” I scream as I throw myself in front of whatever machinery he is driving at the time in order to get his attention.
He mumbles under his breath as he turns off his machinery and answers, “What?”
When I start to explain the reason for the interruption, i.e.,
lunchtime, a phone call, a visitor, or just my need to speak to another
human being as a change from talking to our dogs, his response is, “Can
we talk later? I want to get this done.”
“Okay, but … “
“Honey, let me finish this and then we’ll talk later, okay?” And he
restarts his engine and continues on, leaving me standing in his dust.
Sometimes, I get in the car and go looking for someone to talk to. I
do, thank goodness, have great neighbors. So it’s not too hard for me
to find someone willing to talk. It’s just usually not the man I live
with.
And this is my point. I now understand those women of long-ago,
coming across a person that they didn’t have to tackle before they could
have a conversation, and being so thrilled to have voluntary
conversation that consisted of more than five words, that they opened
their lives to those women and became good friends in a very short
amount of time. In our busy, rushed, and insular modern life, it’s hard
to understand it. It’s hard to understand that aside from the
religious aspect, those churches of olden times were packed full because
people wanted to see other people, talk to a live thing that could
understand and respond, and interact with other beings that didn’t just
bleat, moo, or bark at you.
I understand now these small groups of people gathered together in
front of the country store who are not shopping and who seem to sit
there all day long. I now understand those people standing and waiting
in their yards to see who is coming, because I, too, have become one of
those human statues.
